Sunday, November 21

If you snooze you...

7:15
I will not unlock my eyes.
7:20
I nestle in the sunshine, clutching it.
7:25
I want to linger in its delicate warmth.
7:30
I want to linger in its radiating newness.
7:35
I cannot spoil a new day if it hasn't truly begun.
7:40
I can dream in this light.
7:45
I can wallow in possibility.
7:50
I pull the covers even closer, shielding my face from inevitability.
7:55
I peek as the sun is sitting high.
8:00
I see the hour hand make its mark.
8:05
I feel logic's nag.
8:10
I remain wrapped.
8:15
I fear and loathe the clock.
8:20
Spoiled.

Friday, October 15

Silhouettes–Definition Through Simplicity












All images featured are from Lens, a photography blog associated with The New York Times.

Thursday, October 14

The [Brent Spence] Bridge Song

You were intertwined with him on your father's couch, and I lay displaced nearby. I overlooked the river as we talked, seeing it divide city from country. As grown up as I felt with elitist upperclassmen, I was aware of the divide, and certainly on the fringe. If I had my license, I would've left, but you wound me around your finger, convincing me to stay and watch The Royal Tenenbaums, braiding me into belonging. You bathed in the uniqueness of this "new" music, mimicking the poetic sounds while deaf to their meanings. I mimicked you.

I discovered the "59th Street Bridge Song" by Simon & Garfunkel long before I recognized that the 59th Street bridge connected Manhattan to Queens, and that for three months, I walked past this bridge almost daily. Past, not over. I was never in the lighthearted mood the poetic sounds insinuated, but then again I was moving so fast, stirring up a deafening wind, that I camouflaged any possibilities of connecting. I ran past, and continued to encounter the divide.

I'm intertwined into an unlikely city now with 1/7 of the population. I drive the Brent Spence Bridge daily, linking work and home. Windows down, I blare "The Seventh Seal" from an old high school mix, the only CDs that play in my car now. The car, the music, the bridge—nothing unique, but all propelling me toward and through. Spinning my straw into gold, I am sewn into the fabric of this city.

Wednesday, September 22

Meyer Lemons



How do you view the lemons that are handed to you? Do you see the sour truth or contemplate the possibilities?

Thursday, September 9

Scattered Pieces

Between the beaches and the mountains the fog churns. I sit outside the Kodak Theater in the grey, tangled in dreams of the past and present. Angela Lansbury and Lawrence Welk are sex shop doormats, and the Golden Age of this city hangs as a mink stole across my arms, tossed by the gale of a passing Porsche. I feel blindly for a totem, for time has folded up onto itself, broken into pieces and rearranged into something indistinguishable.

The ground is covered in a mosaic of small pieces, stories of dreams realized and grouted into place, stories about packing up and heading west, about leaving everything to gain something. But what happens when plans change, when the mosaic you have laid is now scattered in front of you?

"I went to film school but became known for the dinners I gave, not for my camera work. Now I am a producer of parties, with the guests and the food as co-stars." —Caterer

I gather these pieces from my once mosaic, distorted ideas that are now shrapnel. The pieces cut my hands as I am unable to let go of my design. How do I create from this brokenness?

My pieces must be sorted and rearranged into something more exquisite, to tell a story exceeding my dreams. I can't sort these fragments of my life on my own, yet the pattern of the One who knows the passions of my heart is hidden. How do I trust in the fog?

Tuesday, September 22

Music: G-H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O-P-Q-R

[Album/Artist] "Song"—memory

[Give Yourself Away/Robbie Seay Band] "Rise"—Crossroads
[Gotee Records/Family Force 5] "Kountry Gentleman"—Julie
[A Grateful People/Watermark] "More Than You'll Ever Know"—Kris and Cami
[Grease] "Summer Lovin'"—Andrea's house, middle school, along with that mall board game, and that metalcasting set
[Guero/Beck]—freshman year of college
[Guys and Dolls] "Sit Down You're Rockin' The Boat"—an overwritten cassette, hello how are you doooing...

[Harmful If Swallowed/Dane Cook] "Stupid Alarm Clock Games"—Meghan, freshman year of college
[Hello Dolly!]—Steph, sleeping in muslin piles
[Hideaway/The Weepies] "Just Blue"—driving away from the Hatchet on a cold rainy morning
[The Highest Heights/The Lovebugs] "21st Century Man"—driving with Darwin on the way to Herzogenbuchsee
[Hits/Joni Mitchell] "Both Sides Now"—March 2009
[The Hits/REO Speedwagon] "Keep On Lovin' You"—Dad, the falling over letters
[The Holiday] "Three Musketeers"—Allison
[Home Alone Christmas/Fox Albert Choir] "My Christmas Tree"—Matt, and the Thanksgiving tradition
[Hook] "Presenting the Hook"—a certain bet
[Hopes and Fears/Keane]—Julie
[Horse of a Different Color/Big and Rich]—Senior year of high school, backstage at JLJ, Todd
[Hot Fuss/The Killers]—Julie, getting into the car in the park in Napoleon
[Hotel Paper/Michelle Branch]—Tiffany, painting the 4-H booth
[How It Ends/Devotchka] "How It Ends"—Megan and our drives freshman year
[How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb/U2] "City of Blinding Lights"—watching A Devil Wears Prada, dad, warm socks
[How To Save A Life/The Fray]—Alyssa
[Hunchback of Notre Dame]—freshman year art history
[Hungriges Herz/Scala and Kolacny Brothers] "Hungriges Herz"—late nights at the Lindenhof flat

[I Am Telling You For The Last Time/Jerry Seinfeld]—Julie, the Kramer silkscreen, Lord of the Flies and AP Lit
[In Bruges]—Katie, assigned theater seats
[Into the Light/Gloria Estefan] "Coming Out Of The Dark"—Dad, the blue Toyota
[Into Your Head/BB Mak]—high school
[Invincible/Skillet] "Best Kept Secret"—wrecklessly pulling into the high school parking lot
[It's Time/Michael Bublé] "Home"—Linda, and driving to Denver

[Jagged Little Pill/Alanis Morissette] "All I Really Want"—Full House
[Jeff Buckley] "Je Nein Connias Pas La Fin"—Jeremiah
[Jerry Maguire/The Who] "Getting In Tune"—late night TV with Dad
[Jock Jams 4/Backstreet Boys] "Everybody"—bedroom dance routines
[Jock Rock 2000/Barenaked Ladies] "One Week"—learning the lyrics in the piano room
[Jock Rock 2000/Fatboy Slim] "Rockerfella Skank"—Christmas at grandma's, She's All That
[Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat]—watching high schoolers in awe
[Josh's Mix/Eminem] "Lose Yourself"—memorizing the lyrics, singing them to Brian freshman year of college
[Joshua Tree/U2] "In God's Country"—driving towards Pikes Peak on a clear morning
[Joshua Tree/U2] "
[Journey Greatest Hits/Journey] “Don’t Stop Believin’”—the Accord
[Juno/The Moldy Peaches] “Anyone Else But You”—When Harry Met Sally

[Kala/M.I.A.] “Paper Planes”—Brooke

[L’integrale Piaf/Edith Piaf]—Camille
[Lady Antebellum] “I Run To You”—Heidi, driving to white water rafting
[LeftRightLeftRightLeft/Coldplay] “Glass of Water”—Coldplay concert/June 2009
[Les Misérables] “Castle On A Cloud”—Solo and Ensemble, middle school choir
[Let Go/Avril Lavigne] “Tomorrow”—driving in the dark, high school
[Let It Die/Feist]—Alicia, Brooklyn
[Life in Cartoon Motion/MIKA]—Julie, New York summer 2007
[Lift/Audio Adrenaline]—Dave and Youth Crew
[Lykki Li] “Dance Dance Dance”—Lily
[Line Dances] “Electric Slide”—Camp Palmer
[Lion King]—collector cards, the genius idea of combining them
[Listen To My Heart]—seeing it at CCM, emotional turmoil
[Little Voice/Sara Barielles]—Christie’s, the Upper East Side in the rain
[Love, Angel, Music, Baby/Gwen Stefani] “Hollaback Girl”—

[Man Comes Around/Johnny Cash] “Hurt”—the upstairs apartment, Basel
[A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar/Dashboard Confessional]—high school in the rain, driving home for Thanksgiving break sophomore year of college]
[Mary Poppins]—Matt, junior year of high school
[The Matrix/Rob D.] “Clubbed to Death”—the parsonage, Luther League
[Mean Girls/Joe Budden] “Fire”—teen angst
[Memory Almost Full/Paul McCartney]—New York summer 2007
[Miles Davis]—Todd
[Millennium/Backstreet Boys] “Larger Than Life”—
[MmHmm/Relient K]—Phil
[Moulin Rouge] “Lady Marmalade”—Erica’s house for a sleepover
[Move Along/All-American Rejects]—Amanda
[Movie Love Themes/Cincinnati Pops] “Main Theme from On Golden Pond”—Mom
[Movie Music–The Definitive Performances/The Byrds “Ballad of Easy Rider”—Survey of Film, spring 2008
[Mr. Holland’s Opus]—middle school band
[Mrs. Doubtfire]—grandma’s living room
[Music Man]—New York
[My Girl] “Main Theme”—Sunday mornings eating pop-tarts

[Newsies]—middle school choir
[Nickel Creek]—Kris
[Nina Simone]—Sam, A2
[No Line on the Horizon/U2] “Unknown Caller”—the Voltaplatz hi-fi system, Sam, Dublin pubs
[No Pads, No Helmets, Just Balls/Simple Plan]—Amanda’s mixes
[Now/Fastball] “The Way”—
[Now 2/Fatboy Slim] “Praise You”—
[Now 4/Train] “Meet Virginia”—
[Now Christmas/Bing and David Bowie] “Little Drummer Boy/Peace on Earth”—grandma and WNDH

[Ocean Avenue/Yellowcard] “One Year, Six Months”—high school
[Ocean’s 12]—Todd
[On A Clear Night/Missy Higgins] “Where I Stood”—driving with Linda, the Springs
[Once/Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová]—salmon spaghetti and missing keys
[One Cell In The Sea/A Fine Frenzy] “The Minnow & The Trout]—Allison
[One Cell In The Sea/A Fine Frenzy] “Hope for the Hopeless”—post New York trip, December 2008
[Only By The Night/Kings of Leon] “Sex on Fire”— driving with Darwin to Herzogenbuchsee
[Only the Lonely/Frank Sinatra] “Guess I’ll Hang My Tears Out To Dry”—
[Our Endless Numbered Days/Iron & Wine]—Kris

[The Parent Trap/The La’s] “There She Goes”—Amanda, dreams of traveling
[Patch Adams/Stills and Nash] “Carry On”—
[Paul Simon Anthology]—Amanda
[Pee Wee’s Big Adventure]—Amanda
[Phil Collins: Hits] “I Wish It Would Rain Down”—my parents
[Philadelphia/Bruce Springsteen] “Streets of Philadelphia”—freshman year of college, winter break
[Pink Moon/Nick Drake]—
[The Producers]—the Odyssey
[Psycho–The Essential Alfred Hitchcock] “Dial M for Murder Suite”—watching AMC with mom
[Purest Place/Watermark]—Cami
[PureVolume/Houston Automatic] “Brilliant”—high school

[Rain Man/The Belle Stars] “Iko Iko”—Lamborghinis, mom
[The Reason/Hoobastank] “Lucky”—high school, driving from play practice
[Rent]—Alyssa, Jeremy
[Revolutionary Road/Thomas Newman] “Golden People”—Pathe! Theaters, cultural misunderstandings
[Rockferry/Duffy] “Mercy”—A2, giraffe dress
[Rocky/Bill Conti] “Gonna Fly Now”—Philly art museum
[Room for Squares/John Mayer]—the light booth, Bye Bye Birdie, spring 2003
[Royal Tenenbaums]—Kay and Jordan, the house on Wayne Park Drive

Friday, September 11

Music: A-B-C-D-E-F

Isn't it amazing how music can unlock a secret hatch in your brain? The staff lines peel apart, and spew 10-year-old lyrics flawlessly.

I have a little free time tonight. Went through my iTunes. Now regurgitating my music memories.

[Album/Artist] "Song"—memory

[Aladdin] "Arabian Nights"—my cousins' basement, laying on the longhair carpet
[Albertine/Brooke Fraser] "Seeds"—the F train, New York
[All For Coffee/Shane Piasecki] "She Falls Like Rain"—junior year of high school
[All That You Can't Leave Behind/U2] "Walk On"—the Friends finale
[Anthems for the Imperfect/Everyday Sunday] "The One"—AALC Youth Conference, 2005
[Armageddon] "Animal Crackers"—Napoleon Public Library
[Assassination of Jesse James/Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds]—Melody and the Voltaplatz flat
[Atlantic Records: 50 Years] "Yakety Yak" and "Mack the Knife"—singing to myself in the Civic
[Atlantic Records: 50 Years/Sister Sledge] "We Are Family"—Old Navy
[Autobiography/Ashlee Simpson] "Shadow"—high school

[Back to Black/Amy Winehouse]—cleaning the Lindenhofstraße flat
[Balance/Van Halen] "Seventh Seal'—driving home from shark dissections
[Blue Man Group]—Chicago
[Baum Pre-Production] "Hope That We Once Had"—Fasnacht 2009
[Beatles 1/The Beatles] "Ob-La-Di Ob-La-Da"—pizza making party in Indian Hill
[Beautiful Lumps of Coal/Plumb]—Krista and ROAR, 2005
[Beauty from Pain/Superchick]—painting the Calvins in the high school hallway
[Bedknobs and Broomsticks]—red card table, felt bears, toast with brown sugar, sink-washed hair
[Beethoven]—Homecoming dresses and champagne flutes of Mountain Dew
[Begin to Hope/Regina Spektor] "Samson"—jan 2009
[Ben Folds Live] "Zac and Sara"—high school
[Best Of/Ricky Martin] "Livin' La Vida Loca"—middle school dances
[Best Of/Steppenwolf] "Magic Carpet Ride"—Spence from "The King of Queens"
[Billy Joel Greatest Hits] "We Didn't Start The Fire"—middle school choir
[Billy Joel Greatest Hits] "Piano Man"— Senior AP Comp
[Blue/Third Eye Blind] "Wounded"—summer nights in Napoleon
[Breakaway/Kelly Clarkson] "Breakaway"—high school graduation
[Breakaway/Kelly Clarkson] "Since U Been Gone"—a certain speeding incident
[Busted Stuff/DMB] "Where Are You Goin'"—high school art

[Cake] "Wheels"—freshman year of college
[Candycoatedwaterdrops/Plumb] "Late Great Earth"—painting the 4-H booth in the garage
[Chutes Too Narrow/The Shins]—watching Garden State
[Circle/Eddie Izzard]—watching Lego YouTube videos at the WG table
[Classic Hits Live/Foreigner] "Juke Box Hero"—high school
[Classic Queen] "Bohemian Rhapsody"—Brianna's house, 7th grade
[Collection of Short Stories/Houston Calls]—Phil
[Come Away With Me/Norah Jones]—sleepovers at Kristen's apartment
[Cracked Rear View/Hootie and the Blowfish]—the Dodge Grand Caravan, driving to Cleveland

[Dan's Mix III/Beck] "E-Pro"—freshman year of college
[Dance Into The Light/Phil Collins]—driving to Cleveland
[Devil Wears Prada/KT Tunstall]—"Suddenly I See"—walking in heels with a big smile
[Dixie Chicks] "Travelin' Soldier"—Katie with her new driver's license
[Dizzy Up The Girl/Goo Goo Dolls]—
[Dog Problems/The Format]—Spoon concert at Battery Park
[Drastic Fantastic/KT Tunstall] "Paper Aeroplane"—grey cube at HQ

[Edward Scissorhands]—the TNT network
[Elliot Smith]— "Good Will Hunting'
[Enchanted]—St. Louis with Katie
[Essential Simon and Garfunkel]—walking through Central Park in the winter
[Eve 6] "Anytime"—peeling out of the high school parking lot
[Everything You Want/Vertical Horizon] "You're A God"—
[Eye To The Telescope/KT Tunstall] "Black Horse & Cherry Tree"—Soho Apple store
[Eyes Open/Snow Patrol] "Chasing Cars"—St. Louis with Megan

[Feels Like Today/Rascal Flatts] "Skin"—HCF grandstand
[Finally Woken/Jem] "Save Me"—paint chips freshman year DAAP
[Finding Neverland] "Impossible Opening"—Bible study in Siddall, freshman year
[Firm, The] "Memphis Stomp"—piano music store in Chicago?
[Five] "When The Lights Go Out"—middle school with Brianna
[Five Leaves Left/Nick Drake]—winter snow falling
[Freaky Friday/Diffuser] "I Wonder"—high school

[Ga Ga Ga Ga Ga/Spoon] "You Got Your Cherry Bomb"—Dunkin' Donuts by the WTC